Secrets....
So, remember I told you that I have a someone that I'm very competitive with, someone who I want to surpass. I want to talk about that someone.
So, I told you I know her secrets. I guess the one she told me wasn't all. There's tons more. Seriously. So, I found an item. Something I bet she would not want anyone to read. I did. I check it out. I was super suuuuuuuupeeeeeeeeerrr shock. I thought I wanted to be like her, but now, I'm not so sure.
I'm sad. Half of me want to do the things she does but half of me knows it's wrong. I'm also kind of sad for her. I know that the only person she can blame is herself but....i dunno I just have a feeling that she's only gonna get worse. Even if she's my competitor, she is still dear to me. I don't want her to be like what she is now or get even worse.
I'm confused. Like I said, I don't want her to get worse. I don't know what to do. Should I tell? Should I keep quiet? I photocopy some of her confession, ya i know it's wrong, but in case I need to tell. Or maybe blackmail? No, I shouldn't do that.
Seriously, I don't know what to do. I feel happy, sad, scared, confused. I JUST WANT TO TELL SOMEONE ABOUT THIS! About her secrets. I don't want to be the only one who knows. I want to talk to her but I'm sure she'll be mad.
I'm scared. She once tried to kill herself! KILL HERSELF! I've been watching these video about cutting, but I didn't know that she's one of them. She cut herself twice. Well, all that I know. What if she really does it. I really need help.
I'm happy. My happiness about this is the least. I'm happy to know that I'm better in some ways. Happy to know that I'm not the bad one. Happy to know that, people who praised her doesn't know a thing about who she really is!
Happy 5%, Confused 25% Sad 30% Scared 40%. I just don't know what to do. Help me...
That's all T__T
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