The New Me

Welcome Back..

It's been a long time..
  Hey all, I'm back and I'm back with the new me! Well, you might be confused. So, I'm here to tell you.

I've been telling you that I'm living under a mask. A mask that i want to take of since forever. Did I take it off? Nope, not really! ;)

Actually, i gave a shot at it but it was true what I said. I can't. I's not that i didn't like it, it's someone else who doesn't.

Now, now. I always say that 'Who matter doesn't care and who care doesn't matter', but this is the someone who is a big part of your life that you can't kick out.

So? Why am I so happy? I learnt that I don't need to take off the mask to be happy. I take it off sometimes so that would fill my whole life until I can truly take it off. 

One day, I will. But, till then, I'm Ally Azlan a.k.a Azcowtuz and I'm going to wait patiently for my time to shine. Bye! ;)

When can I take of my mask..

                                                             My mask....

Hye,

   haven't been writing lately but I'm writing now...

so, I really don't know how to write it. I want to change. My biggest regret ever in my life is making the decision to be what I'm now. I really really really REALLY want to change. Change to be better or to be worse? Well, I'll let you think about that.

People think they now me but no one know what's inside. A someone that I never show. A someone that I want to be but I'm not. I know no one will accept me at all. Not even my family. 

I know I wrote this before but the feeling came again. I'm not the person who cries in front of people or their parents, that's why I write or draw or write songs. So when i can't write a blog cuz my laptop's screen was broken i cried whenever something bad happen.

For the first time I cried in front of my mom, but still I can't tell her the truth. At all. Not even the slightest hint. I want to change, no, I want to be who I really am inside. I want to take of this mask. I want to me MYSELF. People say this so frequently but they don't really mean it. 

That's all... Be strong and be YOU~~